I hate the way I am
I’m not my biggest fan
All my lumps and bumps
I feel like I have a hump
I’m so big I often cry
And sometimes I want to die
I constantly restrict what I eat
It’s a battle I just can’t defeat
I plan menus and buy healthy food
But then sometimes I’m not in the mood
I starve myself most of the day
Then eat junk and just throw it away
I yell at myself till I’m blue
I don’t know what else I can do
I exercise to punish myself
I obsess about my health
But I make no progress at all
The changes are all VERY small
I hate what these meds do to me
I wish I could live a life that’s free
Free of side effects that make me feel ill
That I could improve myself with only my will
But for now, I will just struggle on
Because I’m not ready for this life to be gone
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