Hard Things

I can do hard things.

I can get out of bed

I can take a shower

…sometimes

I can brush my teeth

…most of the time

But my life is hard

Bipolar gets in my way

It takes over my life

It wraps around my neck like a noose

And still I fight

People tell me I can do hard things

They try to encourage me

But I want to punch them

Do you know how hard this is?

Do you know how much easier it would be just to die?

I cry so much

I am so tired

But I don’t give up

I am a fighter

I am an advocate

I am a person

I am not just bipolar

And that’s why I’ll get through this

Because I always do

I CAN do hard things

And I will

Until it’s not so hard

And then I will smile